should be sleeping...

Fortune cookie: "No need to worry! You will always have everything that you need."
But what happens when your desires, the things you deeply want, cause your heart to ache because they are unfulfilled?  The previous quote doesn't seem to offer much consolation.  Often knowing that God will provide everything we need, yet feeling as if God has abandoned us...He's not hearing our cries, He's not granting our desires.  Is it because we don't measure up, is it because He's punishing us or perhaps He's giving us an opportunity to grow, perhaps we need to come to the realization that life's events happen in His perfect time. Prayer should be my first choice...it's not instinctual.

I feel lost. Everything is so simple and so complex. Friendships, relationships, family, occupation, spiritual life. If I am content, does that make me lazy? "If you want to improve, be content to be thought foolish and stupid." Time to buckle up...

Other fortune cookies that I wanted to share (I have plenty):
"The time is always right to do what is right."
"Advancement will come with hard work."
"Big journeys begin with a single step."
"Find a peaceful place where you can make plans for the future."
"You will be happy in receipt of good news."--really?  good news will make me happy?  fancy that.
"You shall soon achieve perfection."--maybe that's the good news that'll make me happy
...and the topper...since it's so fitting with my first paragraph...
"You will get what your heart desires." hmmmmmm.....

I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful

You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful

Walk towards me
I want to hear
The heavens singing over you
When you breathe
And look at me
I want to be captured by you

Gaze into my eyes
And let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love

I want to hide
What’s deep in my eyes
I’m scared to be known by you
But when I turn my head
And see you there
I want to be pursued

Gaze into my eyes
And let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love

A dream I won’t wake from
A story that will never end
The ground your feet walk on
Let me be there, let me be there

Gaze into my eyes
Let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love

something to think about

 (copied from Grace Community Church bulletin 1/6/08)

A Ministry?

If YOU are doing it because no one else will, it is a job.
     If you are doing it to serve the Lord, it is a ministry.

If YOU are doing it just well enough to get by, it is a job.
     If you are doing it to the best of your ability, it is a ministry.

If YOU will do it only so long as it does not interfere with other activities, it is a job.
     If you are committed to staying with it, even when it means letting go of other things, it is a ministry.

If YOU quit because no one praised you or thanked you, it was a job.
     If you stayed with it even when no one seems to notice, it is a ministry.

If YOU do it because someone else said it needs to be done, it is a job.
     If you do it because you are convinced it needs to be done, it is a ministry.

PEOPLE may say "well done" when you do your job.
     The Lord will say "well done" when you complete your ministry.

~A sweet song~

I've had this cd for a long time, just never really listened to it...heard this song in the car today...it made me smile

Jewel-Near You Always

Please don't say I love you,
those words touch me much too deeply
they make my core tremble
Don't think you realize the effect you have over me

And please don't look at me like that
It just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't kiss me so sweet
it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow

And please don't touch me like that
makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow
Please don't come so close
it just makes me want to make you near me always

Please don't bring me flowers
they only whisper the sweet things you'd say
Don't try to understand me
your hands already know too much anyway
It makes me want to make you near me always

And when you look in my eyes
please know my heart is in your hands
It's nothing that I understand, but when in your arms
you have complete power over me

So be gentle if you please, 'cause
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
Babe, and it makes me want to make you near me always

Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
Babe, and it makes me want to make you near me always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always

Currently Listening Everything You Want By Vertical Horizon see related

been a while...

as i sit here copying cds from my laptop, i'm eating grapes & hoop cheese.
*i do believe it is important to note that i am NOT eating these together, just a bowl of grapes & some slices of hoop cheese...one after the other is finished*

  when i was a child, after plucking the grapes off, i used to believe that if i planted the remaining vine...that more grapes would grow.  i would often think of this as i sat under the slide & wooden platforms at the playground behind my house in alaska.  i also used to eat lemonheads in this same spot from a kid who brought them to me & we would chase grasshoppers.
  hoop cheese reminds me of my grandparents' old country mom-n-pop grocery store, with the candy isle, cosmetics, sunbelt clothng, seeds, gasoline pumped by my grandparents, the "ding ding" bell, bottled coke, bag of peanuts, wooden floors...the good 'ole days, they owned that store for about 26 years.  i was 18yrs when they sold it...makes me a bit sad to go in there now...it's an auto parts store & pretty much everything has changed about it.

anyways...

so stacey is awesome!  yes indeed, my roommate got our wireless internet up & running.  it is a wonderful thing.

we decided to go running by the pond this evening after dinner.  it's about a mile from the townhouse, around the park & pond & back.  the majority of the mile we walked, probably ran 3/10 of a mile...but it was exercise nonetheless.  and of course, to top it off...i got a $2 cup of butter almond ice cream with chocolate sprinkles at sunni skys...haha

here is the list of cd's i'm copying:
born to fly-sara evans
norah jones-come away with me
goo goo dolls-dizzy up the girl
train-drops of jupiter
eagles-greatest hits
the white stripes-elephant
vertical horizon-everything you want
james taylor-greatest hits
jewel-peices of you
randy travis-storms of life

very random list...but i like alot of music

My Great Grandma

Muriel B. Dorman, 86
Muriel Buffkin Dorman, 86, of Coats died Thursday, March 22, 2007, at her home.

She was preceded in death by her husband, William Franklin Dorman Sr.; and a daughter, Constance Lynn Dorman Ennis. She was a member of Gift Primitive Baptist Church in Coats.

Funeral services were held this morning at 11 at Ebenezer Presbyterian Church in Coats by the Rev. Joseph Hester. Burial was at the church cemetery.

Survivors include daughters, Ethel Dorman Barbour and husband Doyle of Dunn, Katherine Dorman Ennis and husband John of Coats; a son, William Franklin Dorman Jr. of Dunn; a sister, Pearl Matthews of Buies Creek; a half sister, Vivian Biggie of Knightdale; 10 grandchildren; and seven great-grandchildren.

Memorials may be made to Ebenezer Presbyterian Church, P.O. Box 397, Coats, NC 27521; or to a Hospice Chapter of one's choice.

Arrangements by O'Quinn-Peebles Funeral Home in Lillington.